I grieve for you
I beg your pardon for commandeering this post, but I need to say a thing. This moment was my actual legit favorite moment for Sam Winchester this episode. You see him with his legs folded on the table, tipping his head back and downing a drink. He’s sad, wrecked, and when I was watching this I was thinking ‘Oh. He’s giving up. He’s going to walk out of the bunker and wander for hours maybe kill himself maybe drive the Impala off a cliff that poor poor broken hero. He’s mourning’, and my heart was breaking because Sam deserved to do whatever he wanted after what he’s been through.
But then he stood, calmly finished his drink, and he walked over to the pentagram in the basement and sat down to make a deal for his soul like it was nothing. Like he wasn’t aware of the torture hell would put him through for getting his brother back, like he forgot he wasn’t supposed to try and save Dean this time around. He got up, ever so calmly,and went to get his brother back.
And this is the reason Sam Winchester is my favorite fictional character of all time and will probably continue to be even when Supernatural ends. Because he has endless determination and ambition, and it all stems from his heart and how much he cares. He didn’t even hesitate or consider the consequences, it wasn’t even a choice.
He was going to get his brother back or die trying.
Sam Winchester is better than you.